Tonight I went out for a bit on my own... I just needed a little bit of alone time and "quiet". Quiet doesn't really exist here ever,it was a relative quiet.
As I was walking home, I started to think... Am I really living in Africa? Do I really walk down the streets by myself in a country on the other side of the world from the life I knew? Am I really following the call of God on my life in Uganda?! Is this real life?!?!?!
Well, yes. It is! I have been living in Uganda for over a month now. I venture out into the city on my own. I get to minister to hundreds of kids a week. I get to love on "the lease of these" every single day. I walk out of the gate of our house and get attacked by precious children who just want to spend time with me.
This place is so a part of my spirit and soul, sometimes I can't imagine living in the States again. And at times I want nothing more. Sometimes I question why God has put my heart in 2 places so very far apart. Why can't my family and friends be closer to the kids that steal my heart?
But I think about Jesus stepping down from His thrown in heaven and coming down to a lost and broken world... Why? Because He SO loved! He SO loved!! And that's why I rip my heart out to leave all of my family and friends because I SO love these kids! And they melt my heart daily!
So I guess the answer is... yes, this is real life. This is really where God has called me. He has really been faithful to get me here. And He has really been faithful to sustain me while I've been here!
P.S. I leave for Jinja in the morning to go to Canaan Children's Home!!! I don't know if there is a place that has stolen my heart more than Canaan and I cannot wait to see some kids I love!!!
until all have heard,
lauren michelle gross
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